it has been two days since my o levels started..
i thought to myself..
am i been putting a lot of hard work in this exam?!
thanks to the counselling session with him that i finally found an answer to this..
i felt really BAD just now..
how does having everything i want contribute to my o levels?
is having this a hindrance to my studies?!
does also mixing with the wrong friends contribute to that?!
soon i found out the answer..
it just lies within myself..
what does this mean: hard work leads to success!
i just did a self-reflection..
i guess i didn't put in any hard work for this once in a lifetime o levels..
for me, i really couldn't sense any urgency for this exam, until what he told me just now..
he said that amantha and juvita could study till they cried because of stress..
this impacted me..
people could be so stressed until they cry..
but what am i doing these past few months??
is she also avoiding me because i'm not those study kind?!
why can't i feel the momentum which could push me to study hard?!
then he said one thing..
my mum have been loving me so much that she could buy anything for me..
but why can't i just put in a little effort into the exams and make her proud??
it is easier for me to put in effort to study rather than putting so much time and hard work for her to earn money and buy something for me..
he also said that i'm focusing too much on my strong points rather than my weaknesses..
i agree with him too..
soon, i realised that i have another weakness..
he and pearlyn said that i'm too eager to buy something that i want..
i agree too!
i've been putting my soul and my mind into doing other things rather than STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
after this session, i wanna tell myself to just focus my mind into studies and NOTHING else!!
i really wanna thank him who spend time with me to tell me all these..
i guess it's a session for me reflect on what have i been doing all this while..
and for those who are reading this, just wanna tell u guys that i'll not be posting until exams are over..
i'm also going to commit myself to study hard and not get distracted by the things around me..
hope that u guys will cooperate with me by not calling me until the end of o levels..
11:11 PM